My heart is breaking | southerngirl08's Blog

I am so lost right now, the pain in my heart is so great nothing can take away the pain.  My four grand children are still gone, and I have done all I can to help save there lives from there mother and her boy friend.  The last time I saw them was July 19th after another 9 months of raising them.  There mother is the most evil person I have ever met in my entire life. She only has them for the money the state give her for them.  And because I wouldn't be her puppet on a string and do what ever she wanted I no longer get to see them.  I was the one there when they woke from nightmares I was the one who helped them when they were sick, I was the one they came to when they got hurt, and now I see them no more.  She uses them as pawns in her sick game.  Those of you who know me know this situation that we have been in for a very long time.  We moved back to Iowa from Georgia for these babies.  I and my husband have raised them 90% of there life.  I am so lost with out them, I want to stop this pain in my chest but I cant till the day they walk back into my life, it may  be when its to late to help them from the syco world there mother has them in.  I don't want my grand children to become thieves or drug addicts like her, she is a sociopath, and our entire family on her fathers side my side and my husband side of the family all truly believe this and that she has a serious mental illness, and this is where they are at.  DHS does nothing to help the children.  I wish I had the words to put this in a letter to our Governor but I am so emotional it wouldn't even sound right, I cant go on like this much longer.  Maybe some one out here in EP can help me.  IT HURTS SO MUCH, I CANT STAND IT